Finally... I thought it was just me!!!
Your problem, like mine, is that you are a perfectionist... You want the best even if you have the worst... On one side of the coin, you want to build and develop your team and make it the best, at the same time, you want that developing team to thrash the pants off everyone they play! I bet you even expect to win ALL you friendlys and when you get that big payday again higher team, at the beginning, you don't mind losing 1-0 so long as you put up a good show... You put up a good show, lose 1-0 and think to yourself.... "Hmmm... we could have won that..."
Don't worry about it Telstar... just keep playing the way you do and call yourself the Fergie* of LLM (or equivilant...)
* Excuse the naming of a manager.. not sure if that is allowed...