We were close friends for over a year and the situation we were in meant that we spent virtually all our time together.
From that we moved things onto the next level and that lasted 6-7 months.
Everything was sheer bliss until she had some moment of clarity which changed her outlook on our relationship. Left me shocked to the core as it had nothing to do with me.
Now been hearing my flatmates tell me that they were surprised we weren't together as the chemistry was definitely there to be seen. I. Just. Don't. Get. It.
Nothing will ever be like it was "back in the day" prior to or during our relationship unless we got back together. Everything is relatively screwed up between us these days and I can only see that rising exponentially now that she's with this guy.
What's all the more frustrating is that I was managing to just let her slide out of my life. I hadn't spoken to her in 3-4 days and felt pretty comfortable with it. Cue this bombshell and i'm back to square one.
Sigh. The cycle continues.